Archive for February, 2011

February 25, 2011

the slippery slope of the caffeine addict

Consider this post a sequel to the most previous.

First, you are letting yourself have a second can of Diet Coke on some afternoons, to stave off or recover from a nap.

Then, you are feeling like you might die at 10:00 a.m., or like you might kill something… and you realize that you’d put off your Diet Coke, and once you have it, the world rights itself again.

And then, you are just getting up early, so you need a little pick-me-up, to go from Asleep to AWAKE!!!! with enough time to get your work done.

Then, you’re back to coffee every morning.

Then, you’re up to two shots of espresso every morning.

Then you’re up to two shots of espresso every morning, and an energy drink in the afternoon, occasionally, as a pick-me-up, on those long and draggy days, when you need to get things done.

And then, you’re just drinking it because… you can. And because it feels good. Until your heart starts to palpitate. And your pocketbook bleeds out on Starbucks. And you’re back on that dark, twisted spiral that leads you into the abyss….

February 23, 2011

the wild and weary life of a grad student

And the semester REALLY begins.

This is what my life looks like:

2/23: 9-2 Job #1, 2-4 Job #2

2/24: 9-4 Job #1, 4-9 Job #2

2/25-2/26: Execute a 5-7 page paper… while Lance is home on Winter Break

2/27: 12-4 Job #2

2/28: 6:30-9:30 Finish paper @ Starbucks, 10-3 Job #1, 3:30-6:30 Class.

Things Due: Paper, Read three books, read one dense critical article.

3/1: 12:00-2:00 Job #1, 2:30-5:30 Class, 5:30-6:30 Job #1, 7:00-10:00 Team Trivia

Things Due: Present a mini-booktalk, paper on mini-booktalk

3/2: 9:00-2:00 Job #1, 2:00-4:00 Job #2

3/3: 9:00-4:00 Job #1, 4:00-9:00 Job #2

3/4-3/13: Spring Break, during which I need to:

– Come up with an excellent argument for a 5-7 page paper

– Do any research required for the writing of that 5-7 page paper

– Write 5-7 page paper

– Write a 10-minute presentation about said 5-7 page paper

– Read 2 books so I can figure out how they relate to my paper in a potential class discussion

– Read my partner’s article

– Meet up with my presentation partner to figure out/stab blindly at what we are supposed to do for the other 45 minutes of our presentation time

– Read 4 other articles for the other group that is presenting

– Visit the teen area of a library

– Write a 5 page paper reviewing said teen area

– Work 8-13 hours at Job #2

– Celebrate my birthday

3/14 6:30-8:30 Starbucks so I can finish my paper, 9:00-3:00 Job #1, 3:30-6:30 Class

Things Due: Paper, individual paper presentation, panel discussion with partner, read 2 books, read 5 articles.

3/15 12:00-2:00 Job #1, 2:30-5:30 Class, 7:00-10:00 Team Trivia

Things Due: Teen area critique paper

3/16 9:00-2:00 Job #1, 2:00-4:00 Job #2, 4:00-10:00 p.m. Drive from Boston to Western Mass to see Lance’s band concert


And then I have a blissful 2 weeks with no assignments due.

If anyone would like to place bets on how many migraines I can accrue over the next 21 days, please place your bids in the comments.

February 18, 2011

this is just an update

1. The Internet Is Crazy/The World Is Miniscule

So, have I ever told you about how I met my roommate?

Well, two years ago, when I graduated myself to this Big Girl Blog, I posted a little list of Other Blogs I Read. A few of these bloggers saw that I’d linked and we struck up casual Internet-Friendships. One of those bloggers was Faryle over at Remnants of Nonsense. She was reading when I got accepted to my current grad program, and sent me a comment saying… “Um. I have a friend from college who just got accepted to the same program as you and she just moved to Boston. Do you guys want to exchange emails?”

This would be less weird if my school wasn’t basically microscopic, my dual-degree program consisting of less than 100 people, and if this wasn’t some kind of cross-US connection spanning Kansas, Michigan, and Boston.

Anyway, enter Elena! Emails + classes together + bonding over this and that. We both can barely afford to live in Boston, so we decided living together would be a good way to A) save a bit of cash B) not have to live with strangers (Elena) C) live in a nicer apartment than we could afford separately.

Fast forward to now. Lance finds out via Facebook that a friend from high school is moving to Boston. They weren’t that close, whatever. Then, Lance RUNS into this friend on the street in Coolidge Corner. A few weeks later, this friend and his girlfriend invite us over for drinks, we have a good time. Friend and girlfriend join our trivia team, even though that means trucking it from Brighton to Jamaica Plain on a Tuesday night. Fun times, making friends, etc.

I post a picture of us all hanging out on this here blog.

I get a comment from a long-time blog-friend, Allison, saying “Hey! I used to work with your boyfriend’s high school friend’s girlfriend, with whom you’ve been hanging out with a lot over the past month!”

My mind = blown.

Oh, Internet. Bringing folks together, every day.

2. Fridays

I swapped Mondays off for Fridays this semester. I thought I wouldn’t like it – Mondays off give you a chance to make up for a misspent weekend, get the week started properly, etc. Fridays off seem like a recipe for oversleeping and the chance to take an “early Saturday.”

I will tell you this, though. Twelve-Hour-Thursdays feel a lot better when I know I can sleep in the next day. And, so far, I’ve done a passable job at getting a little bit done on Fridays, especially since I have a little bit of get-up-get-go left over from the week.

It also helps not to have caffeine in the house. I have to venture out of the apartment, and I have to venture out quickly.

3. The Weather Outside is Weather

Our 17 feet of snow are starting to melt. Even though more coldness and snow is on the forecast, I am still freaking PUMPED that it is so nice this week.

I walked to the coffee shop without a coat… and without a SWEATER! Can you believe that?

And later, I’m going for a RUN!! (See: Mental Aerobics)


Hopefully, people will be able to park their bikes on the sidewalk until next December or so?

4. Two Pictures of My Two Loves

Which one is cuter?

Oh, I just can’t decide.


February 14, 2011


Last semester was such a mess, it’s not surprising that I’m feeling comparatively chipper lately.

But I’m still not sure why.

Still working 30 hours a week.

Still taking 2 classes.

Still sticking to the same routines.

Maybe it’s because I’m finally feeling social and mobile, dancing around Boston, visiting friends, spending too much money, staying out late and being thoroughly 25 (or 21?).

Maybe that’s why I’m feeling so peppy?

Or maybe it’s because my boyfriend is growing a beard.

Mmmm…. yeah. Gotta be the beard.


February 10, 2011

Last Night I Sang to the Monster

I wanted to keep him.

I wanted him to stay forever.

How can you live when you don’t know how to sing?

Benjamin Alire Sáenz | Last Night I Sang to the Monster





Thanks to Jules for enabling the advancement and development of Blog Nerdiness.

Not that I really needed encouragement.

February 8, 2011

Peach Pie

Every morning, she lays by my feet while I am sleeping.

As soon as I wake up, she meows and walks up the bed.

She wants to purr and cuddle and hang out until I absolutely must get up and start my day.

I love my kitty.

February 6, 2011

let’s remember how this one goes

Dear Grad Student,

You have two choices.

First choice:

Sit on the couch, wrapped in a blanket, letting the Internet fill up your head because as soon as there is a half-second of room inside, you remember how much you suck, how much you hate school, how much you would rather throw yourself from a bridge than do your work, engage in critical thinking, because you know what? Even if you try really hard, try your best, you will still be miserable-ish and get less-than-perfect grades.


You can get up, get out of the house, get a strong cup of coffee in your needy little hand, get loud music on your headphones, and do the work. Make the hard decisions, do the hard studying, analyzing, and most importantly, do the hard writing.

It’s going to get done either way.

It’s going to suck either way.

The best you can do is put yourself in the position to get in the groove, and hope the groove will follow your intention.

Sincerely yours,

Past Jessica Who Forgets Things Quickly And Needs Periodic Reminders

February 4, 2011


I am…

+ slogging through slush/snow everywhere I go!

+ in love with Foucault.

+ still in love with Kanye.

+ still coughing up a lung or two each day.

+ putting my cat on a diet.

+ putting myself on a diet.

+ settling into a basket the semester