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December 6, 2009

neurotic much

My favorite parts of my life are the ones where I don’t have to make any decisions, choices, form critical thoughts or apply anything to anything else.

I like going to bed. I like being asleep. I like getting up and I like eating breakfast.

I eat two fried eggs and oatmeal.

I don’t like getting ready to leave because it’s annoying and there is critical thought and application of skills involved. What should I wear? How can I make my hair look like a normal person’s hair? How much food will I need to bring with me in relation to the amount of time I will be away from the house? Where did I put my keys this time?

But I do like my little commute. Walking to the train station. Sitting in the same seat I always sit in. Walking to school.

I read while I walk and ride on the train.

And I like reading.

The rest of my days, though, plague me and I get unusually excited when it’s time for bed again.

Ever read It’s Kind of a Funny Story? By Ned Vizzini? Awesome book. Read it now before the movie comes out next year – and take a LOOK at that cast list, why dontcha? It’s a comedy about a clinically depressed teenager named Craig I loved it. I want to read it again, nowish.

Anyway, I think I would like my life it was 100% scripted. Maybe it’s something I subconsciously move toward – versions of my future life that put me in the position of control and offer measured results.

When I get to the point where, like Craig, peeing is my favorite part of the day?

Let me know I need some serious help.

Right now I’m just pleasantly anal retentive.

I think.